Inner side of me.

2007-08-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

changing blog's url soon. and going to ditch BLOGGER for good.

finding a domain to host my blog's own dot com (:

wordpress for my blog.

yay!

keep a look out.....

2007-07-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

2007-07-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

unlucky months

im happy not because

i got 8th/9 in my modelling course.
i owed debts everywhere
i lost my passport
i sold my laptop
i owed sch fees

BUT RATHER I FOUND MY YANGYANG 2 DAYS AGO.

oh my god. im so damn worried. i thought i could nv find him again. missing for 1 whole day man.

here's how the story goes:

i returned home feeling very jaded after helping my dad to tend the shop from 4 am to next day 7 pm, although i did have a few hrs of sleep in the shop itself.

both of them, yangyang and qiqi tried to rush out of the door as they usually do excitedly but stopped by my musculine feet to shove them in. (both of them just simple loves going out of the house)

i thought both of them are in the house already so i closed the door and chatted on msn a little while before i head to the 'comfort of dreams'.

while on bed, i called out for yangyang, he never responds. i thought he still fuming from that i beated him yesterday for peeing on my bed which i had not been doing for a few months, so i continued sleeping.

however when i woked up the next day morning, i called out yangyang's name, he stills doesnt respond. i sensed something was amissed. i search everywhere, every corners in my house but still no sights of him. i went down to the blocks nearby, searched almost every blocks but in vain.

after my modelling award presentation, i went straight home with printed notices and my brother's gf also went to my home too. before i even prepared to paste my 1st notice on my block below, i called my bro's gf and found out that she found yy. what a miracle. i thought i was dreaming, i rushed down immediately.

a kid was seen bringing yy walk around, my bro's gf was broke and she gave the kid ang bao of only $6! LOLS. we are damn poor loh after printing the notices.

another suay thing happened today.

i accidentally locked myself out of my own room. luckily found the keys or else have to break the door down.

i think i would have plenty of suay happenings to blog about this few months. hope luck will change for the better.

meanwhile some pics.

damn hilarious, lucas and i went bonkers. decided to try out some expressions for those heavenly taste and stunned looks after eating food.

some dumb snack i saw at starbucks.

2007-07-07T08:58:00.000+08:00

yangyang where are you?

i just woke up today and cant find my dog, a pomo.

i suspect i might let him out of the house without noticing it since i returned home feeling very jaded yesterday.

please help. i love him very much, i searched for him for hours but in vain.

he is lost in marsiling drive, blk 25.

please email me by my1stxii@gmail.com if u found him, as my hp line is cancelled, i cannot be contacted by phone.

thank you very much for your help.

some characteristics/ facts:

name: yangyang
male
breed: pomeranian
around 3 years old
unsterilised
golden/yellow fur
understands sit down command
when u place ur hand near his paws, he will lift his paw up to offer handshake

note: he only behaves (eg. sit down command, handshake, respond to call for his name) that way at a house, he seems very lost if he is in a 'outside' environment

2007-07-04T01:48:00.000+08:00

friends forever?

fuck this statement. this statement can go to hell.

recently i've just been proven wrong.

i finally know why a-used-to-be very good friend of mine did not contact me as often as he used to for this few years.

i thought he might be busy with his sch, hanging with new friends. NS, i moved to woodlands difficult to meet up or whatever. but i was wrong, since he went into ite, he changed. til now then i realised i've been a fool, i naively thought we can be back the bestest of friends when we are in primary sch til secondary. ever since i was separated into another class in sec 3, the distances between us kept growing.

drifting apart.

becos we were born in more well-to-do families, majority of us lives in a condo, he lived in HDB.
i never looked down on him. i treat him as best friends. even though ka wing speaks ill of him that he forgotten old friends already. i still hung on to hopes, eventually he will come back and hang as often as we used to be.

sometimes i tried to contact him to ask him out, he never answered. i thought he was busy.
i tried and tried.
ultimately, i was tired of tiring.

i gave up.

i never knew why he did not contact me.

i finally did now.

someone told me, he thought of us (the grp of old primary/sec friends) as childish and show-offs.

i certainly did not expect that. i think i was really smug when i was young. im not rich now. for your info, i moved to HDB some years ago after sec 4. i've changed. maybe he doesnt know that.

from now onwards, he will be just a acquaintance to me. i'll be a hypocrite and just say "hello and bye bye" in a smiley face, provided if i get to see him.

Failed my POP (passing out parade)

the result are only known this coming saturday. but i know how well i fared.

i felt feverish that day probably due to the fact of the hot weather, walking around with heavy lugguage for tt 1 bloody cab to the venue.

i lost concentration easily, did badly in catwalks, mtv, tv commercial and acting sections. even my usually strong Q&A i stuttered. nervous.

damn disappointed with myself. i guess this is the end of my modelling career. but its not the end of me. i shall take this as a lesson to change my laidback attitude. strive on my studies.

i still hope my image director give me a chance to stay on.

i guess most of my friends dont know im in the modelling line. i shall blog about the 10 weeks course i had in this few days.

anyway was kind of sad, to see the new mac donalds commercial. i was supposed to be the featured talent, very near the camera. but becos of my terrible complexion, they put me far away with other extras in other table.

the saddest thing was that they eventually deleted the scene when i expect at least to see a small bit of myself in it.

anyway, some pics of me in zara blazer.

2007-06-27T14:34:00.000+08:00

Aloha

don't really have the time to update nowadays.
but saw this damn cute video that i wanna share with you guys.

'whatever'

by the way, my POP for my course (passing out parade) is on this saturday.
wish me luck okay.
this is darn important for me, can't afford to screw up or i'll be DOND
(DIED OF NATURAL DEATH)

shall blog about alan's bday at sentosa when i have the time.

meanwhile some quiz i copied from priscilla's blog.

Can you name 13 of people that you can think of right of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first. No cheating!

(please note: not in order of importance, everyone here is important to me, sorry if i left anyone out means u did not bond with me for a long time)

stanley
yammy
priscilla
wan ping
ka wing
lucas
yu ling
yingyu
zoe
wen ting
alan
carol
cino

How did u meet 10?
same class. clementi ITE.

What would u do if u had nv meet 1?
more freedom + pocket $ by parents but 1 less brother to bicker and play console games. he's my brother, i cant possibly dont meet him can i?

What would u do if 6 & 2 dated?
i would be very shocked. she is already attached to someone else.

Do u think 10 is cute?
yeaps. very. she is just herself, she's never fake.

How did u get to know 8?
same class. clementi ITE.

Would u ever go on a date with number 12?
OMG. she's my real life sister. big nono.

What's 7 fav colour?
ORANGE. definately. she completely obessed over it. i betted she would buy a orange PC next time.

What would u do if 6 confessed he/she love u?
pls. im not gay. if i want to be 1, i will be 1 years ago why wait until now.

Fact abt 9?
she lives in a condo.

Who is 4 going out with?
eldric. her bf. they are almost inseparable.

Who is number 5 to u?
my best buddy from primary sch til now.

Would you ever live with 13?
why not. another good buddy of mine from primary sch. but he's a cleanliness freak, which makes him difficult to live with.

Is 2 single?
nope, taken.

What do u think abt 3?
she's a good listener. a very good friend of mine.

What's e best thing abt number 8?
hmm her looks?

What do u like abt number 11?
he always thinks for others before himself, he should be more selfish.

Favourite memory with number 4?
hmm. when i just enrolled into this insitution, the group went to pris's house.
sitted down and just chatted.

What is number 1's talent?
sleep, eat, sleep, eat. VERY LAZY. my brother.

P.S i did not thought of my parents. what kind of son am i. unfilial.

2007-06-07T07:52:00.000+08:00

Hello im a illegal immigrant, please arrest me.

this time really good game, my passport is lost.

my sister just called me and said the car my dad drove to johor has been break through, the passenger window smashed. my brother's, his girlfriend's and my passport is gone............

the most likely suspect is those drug ~~sniffers~~ addicts that hang around there. my sis's boyfriend gonna send some 'people' to beat the hell out of them tonight, to force them to return the passports.

if i still cant get back my passport, i really have no idea what to do man. who would buy your story-your passport stolen in msia while you're in singapore?

the another thing im afraid is what the thiefs are gonna do with our passports, sell them to fugitives or what.

a bad start to today especially with the CA commercing later.

wish me luck okay.

signing off,
illegal immigrant.

2007-06-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

tests

1st CA on thursday, CCM (call center management)
2nd CA on monday, POM (principles of marketing)

anyway tml is yammy's competition. good luck to her.

im probably going to support her.

after sch i went to amk mac to study (the self study was rather fruitful, usually i cant concentrate studying in mac) for my CCM and went to ntuc xtra walk around.

bought some snacks (how can i leave empty-handed?)

pocky tiramisu chocolate mousse
pocky honey milk

both is freaking nice. but u wont like honey milk at 1st bite, 2nd bite and onwards, u start to appreciate it.

tiramisu mousse, the chocolate coating is FREAKING THICK. no kidding. i took a long time to 'melt' the choco with my mouth.

2007-06-01T14:36:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

2007-05-25T15:52:00.000+08:00

Some pics for yingyu and my birthday

sorry for not informing some of u guys about the chalet, it was a failure on my part, i thought they would spread the news around.

our birthday cakes. wahah! thanks to pris, wen ting, zoe, mala and etc. the chocolate cake was alright, not bad. whereas the cheese cake which looks appetising, tasted very fake.

i wish i wish

multi nationalities-msia,china,sg and thai.

different expressions

chinese and indian

thanks to lucas, alan, yingyu and yu for the shoes and tie.
thanks to li rong for the belt. (this year u bought a belt for me again)
thanks to shahida for the chocolates.
thanks to pris and co for the cakes.

sorry if i missed out any.

2007-05-22T02:12:00.000+08:00

20th

Thanks for all the friends who texted me to wish me happy 20th.

And many thanks to those friends who came with gifts.

the chalet was somewhat a success, but im a bad host. forgive me.

P.S i lost 'something'. call me whatever you want, i don't give a damn.

2007-05-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

workout

finally some workout.

went to the school's gym with alan.

was okay initially. but eventually other class's people came in. they used up most of the facilities.

i fell asleep using the 'knee rise' (whatever u call it), amazing right. go to gym also can sleep. until they were gone then i really started gyming.

aha. also not forgetting some cam-whoring.

2007-05-13T04:54:00.000+08:00

I'm jaded. tired of life.

i wish i can start anew. rewind back to my primary school days, do everything flawlessly. score perfect for PSLE, O levels, be mr popular in sch and outside blah blah blah...

i'm thinking too much. haiz.

living life to the simplest is so much better, happier in this stressful world. have u guys seen channel's 8 simple life?

ah hock (starring christopher lee) for example, is so carefree. gullible but at least u don't be cautious of backstabbers and etc.

P.S Went to 'the clinic' today, totally regretted the decision. It was so darn small, the ambience sucks and so is the music. the crowd there is too matured for us.

2007-05-07T05:10:00.000+08:00

Title back to old trafford faithful.

finally!
after watching them performing poorly in the few previous seasons and being step down by the blues as the dominant force in the premiership, they finally reclaimed the title since winning it in 2003.

i must admit, there was a period of time i feel like stopping my support for them. it was terrible to watch them, performing under expectation and disastrous displays.

this is our year.

By the way, i may have to sell my beloved nokia 8800 later today. Depending how the situation goes. Financially, i'm drained out.

2007-05-06T02:22:00.000+08:00

BORING BORING SATURDAY

i didn't even have time to enjoy my weekends.

anyway some pics for certain themes:

last saturday: stripes

this saturday: brazilian beat

Hilarious isn't it, me in an afro wig.

2007-05-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

Medalist?

in view of the table where we placed our trophies from our secondary & primary days, my brother asked me, "you never won any of them right?"

law: "nah. i got 2!"

bro: "which one?"

law: "that one is won from my primary sch days in a tele match."

from lee kuo chuan primary

law: "and this one. i won from cross country in sec 3. i came in 24th."

cross country. 24th.

law: "you talk so much. where's yours then?"

bro:"that one lah! from a 200 metres sprint in secondary. i came in 2nd."

my bro's

law: "you're SURE? u don't look like one who can sprint leh. somemore 2nd place."

But when i took a closer look at it. it says "TAF Club"

Fatty club.

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2007-05-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

Expressions

are you happy, sad or just in love?

2007-05-04T02:52:00.000+08:00

today after school, suddenly have the impulse to go queue up for donuts factory. so i asked yu ling, yingyu and alan along.

reached there, as expected, long queues. 3 sections. we estimated the waiting time to be at least 3-4 hrs, its too long for us. we went to new york new york at city link to have our lunch/dinner instead.

cheap alternatives to new york

i ordered bbq spare ribs, it says recommended in the menu. was average only. but way better than coffee's club ribs. i dont like the sauce very much.

yes, the servings were huge. but whats the use of it if it ain't tasty?
ratings: 6.5/10 (0.5 is for the wedges)

alan ordered pasta with half chicken in whatever sauce. yingyu ordered waffles and yu ling, buffalo wings. i tasted bits of their food, was alright only. the buffalo wings were not bad, don't be fooled by the appearance of the wings, its very spicy. not recommend for non-spicy diner. the cheese dip was quite unique, i don't know how to explain it, its just different, not as creamy as those normal cheese.

pasta with half chicken

waffles! looks appetising yea?

buffalo wings with cheese dip

not because its delicious, but rather i'm hungry.

we played some lame games, zhong ji mi ma. whoever strike the number, have to take the free candy floss provided to walk a small round of the city link.

alan in his childhood days

i was the one who started it. walked 1 small round. no big deal, although alot people were looking at me. but is candy floss weird? is it wrong?

just abit childlike thats all. take it i'm daring and unique enough to walk around with it. haha.

after that i had some craving for dessert. ordered fried mars bar, the one i tried at far east plaza, chippy is good.

this one is even better. sinful, fattening. gotta to go to the nearest church to make a confession later. the combination of the fried mars bar with ice cream is perfect. a blend of hot and cold substance.

ratings: 8/10 (strongly recommended, but after eating it, a must to go church confess, its sinful)

fried mars bar. yum yum!

candy floss. after melting it with water.

darn. im eating alot lately, gotta go back to diet. i don't want to go back to my old weight.

P.S as long there's belief, impossible is nothing.

2007-04-28T01:06:00.000+08:00

today after school i actually planned to shop alone. because i need the clothes for some specific reason.

anyway coincidentally, priscilla was going to repair her handphone and she tagged along. So does alan and wen ting.

today is one outing i never had in a long time, somewhat like starting of sch term. fun, as usual i was freaking lame, i seeked to entertain. maybe i stay at home too much liao.

anyway, i went to french connection, topman and superheroes store, didnt find what i wanted: stripes and pants (stucked between formal and casual pants).

they insisted me to try on the shirt (formal) at the stores we visited. they say shirt looks good on me rather than tee. of course i didnt buy, because its not what im looking for, i have shirts at home already.

too bad i didnt have pics for it.

some cam-whoring pics:

playing around with the hats

notice we got the same paper bag?

we bought the coat-big from domanchi, they say the design is nice.
they monkey see monkey do, copy me buy. =p

hey! thats very vuglar.

wen ting kept bugging me to take a pic of this.

anyway after shopping for my things, we went to bugis's deli place-dunno-what restaurant.
it sells porridge steamboat (recommended by priscilla). i had never eaten a porridge steamboat buffet. quite intriguing indeed.

porridge base

funny ingredient

lols. see the dialogue box.

are they related? long lost sister?
(priscilla, im joking for entertainment)

i have to say, the porridge steamboat was great!
i rate 8/10. even if u eat alot of the porridge, u wont get too sicked of it. the beef were quite fresh in contrast to the other steamboat stalls around the district.

there's even free traditional ice cream after the meal.

crazy stunts:

my turn

unite the powers of......

summary:

overall i had a great day.

spend quite alot:

domanchi apparels - $108.00
domanchi coat bag - $10.00
converse canvas shoes - $55.90
porridge steamboat - $16.00
the face shop wax - $14.90
ferrero rocher - $1.85
mu-ee handphone pouch - $7.90
the fun i had - priceless

Total spendings: $214.55
(omg, i just spend around this amount on clothes last week. broke liao. i ain't rich. contrary to what most of you think)

there are things that money can't buy, for everything else, there's MASTERCARD.
(:

but i no MASTERCARD. how? i only have debit card. =(

P.S thanks to priscilla, wen ting and alan for accompanying me to buy the clothes i wanted. appreciate it.

2007-04-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

i seriously need to change my laidback attitude. been slacking too much. sch has been meaningless so far, its been 2 weeks but i felt i learnt nothing.

i don't like the teachers, i cannot sense any commitment from them. they just 'teach' for the sake of 'teaching'.

anyway, some cam-whore pics in school. bear with it please.

a great day to start with pocky

dora's lesson is real bored. we decided to tk a pic instead.

vain

this is what wan ping have on her table for dora's lesson.
no sight of any textbook.

after sch i went straight home. browse awhile in cold storage at causeway point, bought pocky mens. its addictive =)

some recommendation for you guys:

cacao chocolates. addictive if u like bitter chocolate.

sweet but not too over. crispy.

meiji crackers
although its plain, but its crispy and nice. best if u eat with cheese or some sauce.

at my mum's restaurant:

Grilled Cod fish

yum yum!

ingredients for healthy drink - my mum made for us

end product

smile

2007-04-22T09:18:00.000+08:00

just reached home not long ago, around 8 am.

Summary of saturday 21/04/2007

woke up on saturday feeling jaded and a little bit down.

wasn't a great time to the lesson eh.

shooted by them left, right, up down, nvm i'm immune to it. we must be receptive and take in criticism to improve. unlike the gold fm commercial only hear the 'good' things. hypocrisy.

after the lesson, which ends pretty early around 6 plus in the evening.

i'm meeting ka wing for a drink, but he could only reached by 9. so i walked aimlessly around clarke quay. around the pubs area, singapore river, central mall before finally settling down at Ya Kun Kaya Toast. One of my favourite stall. whenever i'm feeling down, a thin slice of toast temporary solves my woes. wonder toast right!

my favourite toast set

admiring the scenary at sg river

fountain

and then there was still some time left, i decided to shop in the japanese supermarket, meidi-ya. saw lots of japanese snacks that i have never seen before. bought a few of them.

i tried pocky almond crush. damn good loh i tell ya. almonds is my favourite.

time for poem:

whenever there's nuts, lorry goes nuts.

okay back to topic.

another reason: i liked almond is because desmond is my best friend.

hmm. if u're not laughing or give this type of expression: -____________- that means u do not understand the joke.

>>>>fast-forward..

ka wing met me, we went to satay club to watch soccer and drink at the same time. after that, went to pool fusion to play pool and waste time in mac until morning 1st train arrives.

and here i am, tired. just reached home.

2007-04-21T01:25:00.000+08:00

i'm just not lucky enough. if only i met you earlier.

2007-04-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

Happenings..but

i have to admit, yesterday is one of my most happening day. why? throughout the day, i was fully occupied. around afternoon i went to RHB bank in raffles place to be a mascot.

a lion costume

darn it wasnt easy as it seems to be a mascot. when i put on the costume. it was very hot and stuffy, difficult to walk about. i was barely able to see my surroundings, pitch dark inside the mask like as if i was having hallucination.

terrible. the job was meant for an hour but i worked for around 40 mins, im already sweating like dog. and by hot i mean it was really darn HOT, barely able to breath inside the mask.

tee and jeans were soaked in sweats.

After the mascot thing, i had some free time to dress myself up for another job. formal wear was the code.

guess who i saw at the venue?

eunice olsen! she looked marvellous.

i was so star-strucked, seldom get to see them face to face. i couldnt resist chatting and taking a pic with her. she was very friendly towards me and everybody, i guess she was being professional. pretty daunting to talk and look her in the eyes, afterall she's a celebrity.

i found out something surprising in our conversation. she used to live in marsiling drive too, the darn boring place im staying now.

wrong take. nervous.

second take. perfect.

eunice olsen at the set. orchard scotts.

didnt take many pic of the condo. just some randomly take.

For Your Information, the condo costs 5 million SGD. Yes, 5 freaking million dollars. this are meant for those people who couldnt think of anyway to spend their abundance or riches.

Some vain moments:

i was an extra in the shoot, the director instructed me to stand in one corner eat and talk to an imaginary friend as if someone was there, the angle was acute so that the video cant see that i am actually talking to the empty space. im so poor thing. luckily in the second section, i had a partner, to walk and talk around the scene.

after finishing the shoot, it was quite late, around 8.30pm. i went to my sis's place to return the scarfs i borrowed since it was so near.

surprisingly, her 2 SIA friends and my sister-in-law were there too. they brought me to a chinese restaurant for dinner and hear this carefully, my sister actually intended to bring me to club!

doesnt sounds weird to u all but weird to me. i seldom go this type of place with my family. in the end, we did not go to MOS because it was expensive, she could get free entry if we went earlier.

chose pubbing.

we settled down at the PUMP ROOM instead. i ordered Mojito, abit sour, but it was pretty nice. the remaining ladies ordered beer-wheat ale and my sister-in-law ordered COKE.

-_____________________-
he doesnt like beer and stuff.

anyway, i not a fan of drinking alcoholic drinks too but social drinking is alright depending on the occasion.

men who don't drink and smoke are good men. haha, self-praise is no praise.

the pump room

mojito

so tall. 500ml. looks small in pic.

what a tiring day. went out at 12 plus pm, reached home at 2 am. it was an experience for me but however one of my friends were sad. i don't like to see them feeling that way, i want everyone around me to be happy. although its quite impossible.

contradicting day. sweaty at afternoon, had to be classy at night.

Phew. LONG ENTRY. long time since i blogged this long.

2007-04-19T11:57:00.000+08:00

Touché. Touched.

met her at town yesterday. went to starbucks and i tried in vain to teach her flash. wahah, sorry im a bad teacher. as usual, we were chatty. thats good for communication.
she bought me donuts from donut factory which she queued for 2 and 1/2 freaking hours.

i'm touched. she must be very tired.

anyway, i bought some clothes at topman. a shirt, cardigan and a pants. ha im quite afraid that i would bought wrong clothes again so i asked the staff to help me to pair together the apparels.

the donuts were nice. thank you very much, u certainly made my day.

2007-04-17T02:18:00.001+08:00

I'm proud of my drawing.

Some senseless drawing. But Fun =)

Prepare for glory! 300 the movie.

French fries huge comparison.

Should i? Should i not?

Tml is free cone day!

Ben & Jerry free cones!

let's be kiasu and grab as many freebies!
wahaha. just kidding. maybe i'll consider going tml.

2007-04-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

today suddenly out of the blue, we decided to go malaysia.

3 men went to JB to conquer the food industry.

by the name of law, lan, cas. (lawrence, alan, lucas)

here it goes:

back with "italy".

become fat we will.

6 pack never comes.

what a lousy poem.

we went to my mum's place to eat and to some hawkers in jb. super full.

tml will go clementi stadium jog if release from sch early. =)

2007-04-15T16:54:00.000+08:00

even my dog is feeling it.

..................................

2007-04-15T04:06:00.000+08:00

been there since 11 am, 8 pm end class.

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freaking long hours loh. shagged until not much appetite.

anyway jud is a darn good story teller, is he who makes it interesting, not the story itself. i was laughing my jaws out. but the back part is damn stressful got to improve alot on it.

next week is androgynous. i didnt even know how to create simple look, whats more androgynous look.

anyway, i decided to stop wearing my diamond studs. its already a passe. if you can shine, why do you need a stud to help you right?

lately i haven thinking alot. i constantly reminding myself not to be naive: stop all those wishful thinkings. u've been hurt, rejected countless of times. the fear of rejection gripes me.

why open yourself to more dejection. but when i seriously thought about it, i don't want my life to be filled with regrets, because i don't even know how it feels like to be in love.
is it sweet? is it bitter? sour?

it was my stupidity to begin with: wishful thinking. it was never love in the beginning, it was pure friendship. i guess i'll nv have the chance to give out the present which was suppose to give it to her at january. i shall throw it away or give it other people instead.

anyone interested? Lollipops?

anyway here's some pic of what's inside the overdued present:

hand-made stuff, necklace, glass of queen.

b'day card, box filled with lollipops and her name in frame.

some dumb self-made stuff

thats all. i wonder if the ants have already been inside the box already anot.

so much about living life to the fullest. what the hell.

i'm jaded. i really am. sometimes i wonder the purpose of living in this world.

an emotional night.
its late.
nights everybody.

P.S i guess everybody must been bored with the songs. uploaded new songs. i think its old, but i loved the song, boston. touching.

Updated: cant upload boston, i dunno why. tried different hosting webby. even they are against me. listen to what hurts most bah, also not bad.

2007-04-14T09:06:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking yesterday night lying on bed.

wouldn't it be nice...if...

that was for 30 mins.

anyway here are some pictures:

bling bling. cant see it here. hp camera cmi.

act cute.

qiqi in my brother's room. probably too cold, the air-con.

2007-04-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

谢谢你芋头. i had a great time, i hope i have not bored you.

thanks for all the stuff u gave me. i like the L-keychain and the mens pocky. as for the other biscuits, i haven tried yet. dont play play with her, snack queen 在此！

yummy

vain

before the movie, we ate at pasta mania. not very nice, standard drop from what i eat at other outlet. or perhaps i didnt have much appetite today. so unlike me.

we watched shooter the movie, quite thrilling. i liked it actually. i loved those movies that bring out the intelligence of the male lead, an assassin is cool man.

after the movie, walked around and talked. she was an outgoing person, easy to talk to. i feel shy if a person is too quiet when he/she is too quiet, it would be awkward. but thankfully that was not the case =)

and guess who we saw at heeren. i thought she looked familiar. tammy from nyp.

anyway, thats about it for today.
alios.

2007-04-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

today i ALMOST came close to selling my 8800 or ipod.

for your info. this 2 are irreplaceable in my life.

without my ipod, sitting in long journey rides is like cutting my wrist.

without my nokia 8800, means no communication with friends etc, is comparable to being lifeless.

anyway, this 2 examples are over exaggerating.

wahaha.

2007-04-04T10:41:00.000+08:00

i just got back my results. deprove a little bit but overall still not bad.
This sems GPA = 3.61, last sems GPA = 3.688
i thought i'll get a B for ERP but instead got an A, quite surprised maybe i know how to bomb my way through.

but the most disappointing thing is i got a B for BCM, i thought i did well for it. and also ETP, miss ang made empty promises, she said we'll get an A.

anyway, its already over. good enough to go to poly, thats the main thing, forget all about competitiveness.

2007-03-30T03:47:00.000+08:00

i just cut my hair recently, everybody commented its nice.
by the way, i went to orchard emerald's xpect branch, their staff are pretty skillful.

and one more thing, this is quite weird.
when cutting my hair, the female stylish said to me "did u watched death note?"

i replied "yea, i did. why?"

"oh, when u walked in, ur hair is so long...cover ur face. u looked like L in that way"

"hur hur" i replied.

wahaha. so honoured. i looked like L!

although i like Light < L

My new hair cut:

i now then realised those glamourous job are not easy as it seems, it just portrayed itself in that way.

there's no easy job in the world.

darn the lessons was hard. im beginning to doubt myself if im suitable for this industry.

uphill task ahead.

2007-03-23T05:46:00.000+08:00

recently got to know a new friend. And oh dear, she's good in photoshop.

why do i say that?

just look at this.

the one on the right is unedited and the left is edited pic.

impressive huh. looks pretty realistic as if the character is in the movie LOTR.

i shared with her my intention to edited my pic to sin city effects, she did one herself.

BEFORE

AFTER

ha. the speech bubble is my work. she even gave me credit for it, thanks ya.

anyway, i just did one. the result is disastrous.

BEFORE

AFTER

maybe its because of the blurry image i got or maybe the dark background. but the main reason is that im just not good enough.

as the saying goes: once a noob, always a noob.

hey wait a minute. this is contradicting. u cant possibly always a noob, becos humans are always learning and improving.

~~once a noob, always a noob.~~

i rephrase: once a noob, never a noob.

i gonna try my hands on it again. never give up.

P.S the speech dialogue are pretty lame huh. lol. my idea.

2007-03-20T03:13:00.000+08:00

blogger is fucking stupid can.

everytime i want to log in, there's a option for the system to remember me if i tick the check box, i ticked it.

but the next time i load the main page, it request me to log in again. (im sure i did not delete my cookies)

-_______________-

Remember me? FUCK OFF BLOGGER.

before my semester ends, i was wishing for the holis, but im starting to get bored. i almost did nothing in this holi. seldom go out. only help out in my mum's and dad's restaurant.

emptiness fills me.

can somebody tell me how can i make the most of this holiday?

i want to ENJOY myself to the fullest.

life seriously sucks.

2007-03-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

sometimes i get really emotional just by seeing my old friends or school mates enjoying themselves, in poly/overseas trip/clubbing etc etc.

why?

because i'm jealous.

like as if i'm wasting time when people are happily spending their time.

like as if i'm missed out the fun.

2007-03-08T16:36:00.000+08:00

happened to chanced across this web, quite interesting. decided to try it out.

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

my gosh. i look like heart throb takeshi kaneshiro? and the european legend alfredo di stefano?

not in my wildest dream.

2007-03-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

recently very busy with projects, i didnt even have the time to blog.
finally have a well-derserved break, no more projects for this semester. however, there are 2 incoming exams next week, after that its HOLIDAY!

anyway, i find it a must to blog about this particular incident.
last sunday, i and my group members went to clementi mac to rush our WAD projects. i bought along my lappy with me.

after awhile, my screen darkens, i turned around and saw my the switch for my charger turned off.

i asked my friend, he said he saw a tall figure walked past and turned off the switch.
who the hell do such a thing?

i heck care, turn on the switch and continue with my project, moments later i find my screen darkens again. and saw a figure ran past me.

i looked outside the glass panel, saw a stupid looking guy starring at me. i knew it was him who did that. or else why give me that stupid suspicious look?

what was shocking is that he actually taunted at me. waving his hand like as if luring me to confront him. he actually did that a few times. but i ignored him, damn no image if i fight with a retarded guy outside mac. because only retards do this kind of things. his appearance also fit the criteria for a retard.

anyway, here's his pic. he came back after awhile.
he's the one who look as if he was praying in the pic.

2007-02-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

CAMWHORING

Acting L & Light in death note

Comparision of genuine death note. we have a unique black Misa (i aint racist)

Double trouble

Yangyang

Valentines day dessert: Cheese Tart (notice the heart shape?)

2007-02-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

Usually i hate Valentines Day because

i have to rush to malaysia to help my mum in the restaurant.
it spoils my date with yangyang because i have to do the above. (yangyang is a dog)

But yesterday was a nice day.

Why do i say that?

Its not because i had a hot date (which i hope for) or what.

Its because

my mum strike lottery
got 49.5/50 for WAD CA 2
got 53/60 for ERP CA

Woot.

My mum strike 10k RM, although its not much considering she owe some debts and half the cash would only be left after clearing them.

But better than nothing right? the number is 0301, my grandmother's tombstone number. it seems that, she gave some blessing for us to have a prosperous new year.

My dad was pretty angry. Because he didnt strike. He normally would buy that number, as he did on the last draw.

But yesterday he was very busy. Settling some "trapped" payments with the bank and stuck in the traffic jam. So busy that he forgot about it. Usually, he would buy 50 big 20-30 small, yesterday approximately 280,000 RM flew away.

If he strike lottery, i would have no problem asking for a apple ibook.
"Dad, i want to buy a laptop."

"No problem. How much is it?"

"About 3k-4k."

"Aiya, so cheap ar. How much u want, go withdraw from my ATM card la."

IF ONLY.

Anyway, 10k aint bad too. I have some cash to buy my new year clothes liao.

But i got nobody to accompany to go. Alan hates crowd, Lucas not buying and others are not free.

Was planning to go shop alone.

It was raining heavily.

Darn.

-________- (double eyelids become single eyelids)

Make no mistake, i got no qualms shopping alone. Shopping alone is fun too, since u dont have to accommodate anyone.

But i do admit its kind of boring.

Ok im contradicting myself.

Anyway today i was late for sch. AGAIN. I only reached school at 1 plus, attended ERP and BCM only.

Hur hur. Mdm Seet must be very surprised. I only taken 3 or 4 tests that she gave. I slept at most of her lessons but yet i got a A. That would teach her not to look down on others. To be honest, i never really study for it, it was a last min thing really. It was rather a fluke.

She's very very biased i tell ya, especially towards me, qiu hao, lucas, bee lin and others. Don't know how to put it in words, so u'll have to judge her by yourself.

Anyway for BCM today we only 捞鱼生.

HUAT AH! ABUNDANCE OF RICHES COME MY WAY.

2007-02-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

Life is so boring nowadays as if it is meaningless like on wednesday for example. Have to rush to Malaysia to help in my mum's restaurant.

I have no one anyway. It has always been this way.

Projects, projects & projects. Zzz.

Gosh. Kill me better.

No! I at least have to get to Polytechnic before i leave this world.

2007-01-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

-________-

my outgoing calls had been barred.

pls forgive me if i did not reply ur smses or call u back.

my bill is only $177 and i paid $100 a couple of days ago.
now the outstanding bill is $77.

wtf.

scare i run away?

this never happen before, unless i owed for a couple of months. this was only 1 unpaid month.

anyway, thanks for all the friends who showed concern when i was sick.

2007-01-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

i am still feeling unwell. gosh im such a weakling.

i hate being sick. illness, sickness please go away real fast ...

how can i play ping pong in this way?

anyway i just scanned my com with anti virus which i have not done for ages.

guess what?

there are 122 freaking spywares. especially the 'flashes' trojan horse which threaten my ipod survival.

this explains why i need 15 mins just to shut down my com. thank goodness i deleted all of it.

anyway the retest for ERP CA is on this friday, wish me luck ok?

alios.

*here comes double trouble. qiqi- the sister of yangyang, is here!
but its quite funny, because qiqi is as if the carbon copy of yangyang.
for example, both turn in circles when they're excited and they like to bite stuffie with their mouth.

like sister like brother.

2007-01-29T17:30:00.000+08:00

i took mc today.

feverish.

wasted.

alot friends told me today's paper was a breeze.

-___-

but anyway i can console myself with the principles i always lived with.

"i'll never fight a losing battle"

anyway even how the paper is easy today i also cant score high marks, because everything i studied yesterday cant get into my head.

my back strained, i get tired very easily.

Hope the retest would be easy.

2007-01-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

im feeling so uncomfortable and sick. i'm dead.

shld not eat the seafood soup just now.

having fever.

no mood.

going to die like dog tml.

if can get A/B, i am god liao!

im only starting my studies now, less than 12 hrs to go.

2007-01-28T03:37:00.001+08:00

im so happy!

after being in AB forum for nearly 2 years, im finally a gold member.

AB forum is one of the largest forum that exists in the net with 175267 registered members.

it may mean nothing to u, but it meant alot to me.

i finally gained recognition.

2007-01-27T02:08:00.000+08:00

My day was spoiled by some malays last thursday.

I'm not racist.

I was in Clarke Quay with some friends, to celebrate pris birthday. We went to Settlers Cafe, those type of board games cafe, it was pretty decent.

After that, we were outside party world, discussing whether to go in. Because it was getting late, my house aint near to town, woodlands mind u.

Then all of a sudden, i felt something hard hit me by my ribs. Felt like ice cubes.
Realised it was eggs that was being thrown behind my back. Pris, alan and lucas also tio some of it, but not as direct as me. I 'deflected' it. -______-

When i turned around, i saw no one. Lucas said it was some malays on a bike.
I was fucking angry but yet i could do nothing about it.

Just a bunch of pussies, escaping on a bike.

They seriously have nothing to do.

Fucked up people in a fucked up world.

If they were on foot i bet i'll beat the hell out of them.

Do you know for the sudden increase of my handphone bill in november?
I bet you do.

2007-01-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

suddenly felt very frustrated & moody.

i went to my friendster delete all my pictures except for 3.

i even delete my slider show on friendster.

realisation of reality is only a matter of time.

*yesterday and the day before, in total i only slept for 3 hours.

Tell someone out there i burned midnight oil doing ite's projects and stuffs and they'll laugh out their lungs. Most of their reaction would be "ITE so busy? who're u trying to kid?"

from this =.= to this -.- (whats the difference? ans:double eye lids to single eye lids emphasising on the unamused reaction)

how ironic. ite are supposingly for us to slack.

2007-01-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

Time to study.

Tml is the mock test.

Fail and im gonna get debarred.

My new skin. nice?

My Chemical Romance rocks!

*do i have a place in her heart? i don't know. i really have no idea.

2007-01-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

Saw something interesting while researching for the stupid project.

From: BBC news, 02 Jun 04 (FWD by Kave Ho)
Ladies' nights 'discriminatory'

Cut-price cocktails for the girls will be a thing of the past in New Jersey.

A New Jersey official has ruled that ladies' nights are unfair and discriminate against men. Offering free nightclub entrance and cut-price cocktails just for women is illegitimate, the official ruled.

Senior civil rights official Frank Vespa-Papaleo said eradicating discrimination must remain more important than business interests.

The decision, which carries the weight of a court ruling, could be applied across the US state.

The New Jersey official agreed with David Gillespie, a customer of a bar who claimed he was unfairly discriminated against because his gender prevented him from taking advantage of the discount.

'Puzzled' The owner of the Coastline bar and restaurant in Cherry Hill, the establishment at the centre of the case, said he was surprised by the ruling, but confirmed there would be no more ladies' nights for the foreseeable future.

"I was puzzled," Chris Mourtos told BBC News Online.

"In 26 years of having ladies' nights on Wednesdays, we have only ever had one complaint. One complaint - and he won!"

He said that trying to balance the promotions was not an option. "We tried a guys' night years ago, but nobody turned up. No women came so the guys didn't stick around."

Stupid right? One guy complained and he won a major case to change the law.

But in another sense, its also quite unfair. Girls have ladies night, guys have nothing.

Let face it.

Guys go clubbing to get laid and wasted. (excluding me)

Girls need freebies to attract them.

And hence, ladies night.

No ladies night -> no girls -> guys objective failed (get laid).

2007-01-05T04:45:00.000+08:00

Very bored with those projects, presentations, tests blah blah blah.

FUCKING BORED AR.

FEEL LIKE GIVING UP.

U know why i'm bored already? (see from line 1 to 3)

Friday meeting her at causeway.

Fifth time.

*Changing my blogskin soon. Bored with this one, stay tuned.

2006-12-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

Mixed reaction today.

The good news is i met up with her, the bad news is that i lost my only means of communication with her.

Her mum confiscated her cellphone.

For the past 6 months, her mum never knew she had a handphone.
She only discovered yesterday night.

I was late 20 mins today, i took a cab. When i reached yoshinoya, she was nowhere to be seen.

I called her and msg her, thought that she might be angry with me being late and decide to go for her piano lessons.

It was not as i thought, she reached afterwards. And told me her handphone was confiscated.

Haiz. How could this happen when she was about to start her new school term and lots of chance to meet up. Her com was down too, even if it was up and running, she seldom log in online. Not much effect.

Anyway, she didn't eat much today.

Her mum probably wont return her hp, words to describe her parents, "strictest to the core".

Anyway she gave me this:

Is this a pig?

Thought it was some cutie stuff toys or what.

Opened it after she got off the bus to her piano lessons.

Inside was:

Chocolates bought from Japan

2 latest gatsby wax from Tokyo

A Ben & Jerry's Napkin

I like the Gatsby wax, very much. Very thoughtful of her. The casing was nice, portable and furthermore, it can't be found in Singapore!

The chocolates wrapping are nice too, i haven tasted it yet.

And are u wondering, what the hell did she gave me the a Ben & Jerry's napkin for?

I was surprised too. It was a letter.

Contents are confidential

It sure brightens up my day, cause didn't really expect her to write a letter for me.

Overview

Gone to town with Ka Wing walk after that.

Fooling around in muji store

Dunno when can meet her =(

Thats all. Alios.

Happy new year to everyone. Happy paying for 7% GST next year. Fucked up govt.

2006-12-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow meeting her.

4th time.

North point.

Haha.

Waking up early tml, alios.

2006-12-20T06:23:00.000+08:00

Quote of the day:

When Mustard Met Honey

Dijon mustard is sophiscated and abit snooty.

Honey is sweet and wild.

Sparks fly when they meet...it's love at first sight.

Honey mellows and softens mustard's sharp edge.

(Source: Kettle Chips packet)

2006-12-19T02:09:00.000+08:00

19TH OF DECEMBER.

=)

2006-12-14T13:25:00.000+08:00

I think this is fate that this group is formed, one common similarity: short-tempered.

The group is reduce bit by bit over period of time, since the start of the school when we first met each other.

The group used to be so big, crowded, lively.

Perhaps this is harsh reality of life. There are bound to be clashes among humans.

Thats why humans relations are so complicated.

How to rectify this situation?

Ans: I DON'T KNOW.

梁山伯与茱丽叶
词/曲：曹格
专辑：习惯

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远不放开
I Love You
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来
为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

2006-12-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

Gelaskins is one of the best design skin for ipod.

I saw tonnes of design from other websites like decalgirls & others but none could compete with Gelaskins.

Ipod owners should give it a try.

Here are some of the designs i like:

2006-12-08T14:06:00.000+08:00

Currently at Qiu hao house now. Cause friday class cancelled. Then thurs night nothing to do, go his house slack.

He sleeping now with pet. Both sleeping like pig =p

HOHOHO. Don't think they would see this.

I'm seriously thinking of buying a macbook instead of a laptop. Cause it is damn cool on their exterior, with looks to kill.

And recently i asked around in Hardwarezone forum, about which one to buy cause i afraid i cannot adapt to mac style since i have been windows all this years.

This is what he replied:

"It took me all of 2 minutes to adapt to a Mac. It took about a day of usage to not want to ever go back to Windows."

And

"Just wanted to add, I have completely gotten rid of my PC and am living with my MacBook Pro. No complaints.

My gf went the iBook way and not looked back. Ever.

The famous tagline which a lot of Mac Users currently live by : Windows for entertainment, MacOS for everything else."

His reply is so cool. Totally convinced me. I WANT A MACBOOK!!!!!!!!

But i no $ =(

Sponsors?

Ermm, uh..kidding.

Here's a beauty of that art.

The original pic without photoshopped.

Hobbits attack!! Photoshopped by lucas and i.

Then we laugh until like fuck. Damn funny.

Editing is fun. But we are noob in Adobe Photoshop.

2006-12-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

Just finish downloading My Chemical Romance's Welcome To The Black Parade today.

Just finish hearing some of the songs.

I must say, sounds pretty good. It rocked.

ya ya, i know i pretty slow, this album release long time ago.

Lazy to download ma.

Bratwurst and chill hotdog. My style: never wait for others as evidentally seen.

Looks ordinary but taste good. Went to Its branch in Vivo City last tues with Billy.

At first i scan the menu, saw the bratwurst hotdog, costs $5.90. I thought to myself, the price is normal, pretty much the same as Burger King and others. Then i saw a line of words beneath it.

Add $3 for medium fries and drinks.

Lol. Diaoz. Deceving. Means $5.90 = no fries & drink.

Burger + fries + drink = $8.90

Very ex lei. But Carls Junior is almost the same price.

What matters is that it taste good.

My new tv, bought 2 weeks ago. Ain't grand but looks decent enough yea?

29 inch, not bad le la for average income family. Watch soccer song sia.

Not LCD screen but looks pretty slim for flat screen tv.

The LG tv cost only $480, tv are really cheap nowadays.

*Today went to Bishan to play soccer with QH & his friends. Played badly as usual.

*Hated those meaningless mails that state "if you don't send to how numbers of people, you will die or whatsoever... blah blah blah"

Fuck off. Bo liao.

2006-12-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

i HATE my SEC SCHOOL LIFE.

No impact or whatsoever on my life.

So life spend there is a waste of time.

The people there are so 'fake'. They aren't real friends, maybe some. Yes, but they are the miniorities.

Hmm, my kaya toast flying away at 9am, too bad i can't send "it" off.

Hopefully when the kaya toast comes back, "it" can reunite with butter.

Happy couple =)

2006-11-30T11:38:00.001+08:00

What the heck.

I still don't know how or why this happen.

I don't know what to say.

Darn.

2006-11-29T17:07:00.000+08:00

Alot things happened recently.

Mixed feelings.

Been going out alot.

Last friday (before that accompany lucas go that modelling company) went to TCC with Mala, Zoe, Pris & Alan.
Saturday went to Orchard with Ka Wing and Billy, after that went to Qiu Hao's place and stayed overnight.
Sunday went to visit my grandmum in hospital (she unexpectedly passed away when her condition seems to get better)
Mon-Tues (Funeral), evening return Spore
Wed nv go sch =p, went to meet Queenie for breakfast instead =)

Bought some stuff too.

Sat to Hereen, bought 2 Flesh Imp tees as there are 20% discount and additional 10% for me as i am member.
Tues night to Vivo's City, bought a x'mas chocolate tree from chocolate factory for her.

I wanted to upload alot alot of photos but darn, you know is a freaking draggy process!

Wednesday summary:

As i said, i went to have breakfast with Queenie. Its the third time in 3 weeks i meet her but dunno why i didn't blog about it.

3 times in a row, we went mac. Boring. Only once we eat, the other 2 times just drink.

Today gave her the present for early advance x'mas. She was surprised. Hope she like it. Add two ensaymada (philipines cheese bun) in the paper bag in case she was hungry during her cca break.

Walked her to her sch afterwards.
She is flying on friday to Japan/Korea for 3 weeks, my hp gonna be very quiet for this 3 weeks.

Saw her friendster profile, in it got one sentence "=]lols.now tat i hab found euu,=]"

Is she referring to me? I have no idea. I hope so though.

*To my grandma, Rest In Peace.

*To my dad, please don't be sad, perhaps it is a jie tuo for grandma. Hate to see you like that. You seldom cry, seeing your tears welled in your eyes, i can't hold back mine too. I'm a unfilial son, i didn't do anything to give you a better life.

*I dunno why. Its always like that, don't know why you all always angry for nothing. I can't do anything except saying sorry. I'm sorry to say that seeing you all upset spoils my day. I appreciate all of your concern for me though.

2006-11-19T05:54:00.000+08:00

Fishing was the plan today.

Ironic.

Why?

Caught none.

We travel in sea more than the time we fish. It was more like a exploring trip rather than fishing trip.

Went out to the open sea in 6 pm, pretty late due to delayed in some minor matters.

The sun was sun-setting. The horizon emmits a blazing red ray. The scenary was beautiful. The sky was clear, the air was dust-free (well, almost).

My bro was steering the boat, he took us to one place for us to stop and fish. But all the time, our baits were eaten or there was no fish.

We decided to change our location, my dad called us. He meet us in a kelong nearby in the middle of the sea.

After a while, we saw a blue boat heading towards us, we presume it was my dad. But then, by the time the sky was already dark and the lighting on the boat was very dim. It was as if no one was steering the boat.

But of course, we can see him when he was inches infront of us, but he was 'faceless'. The light is too dim.

Damn eerie.

We need to shine the torch on him to identitfy him.

My dad later told us, he need to go collect some 'live' seafood in a 'kelong'-wooden floating village. We accompanied him. The initial route to the place, was surrounded by alot of trees (those sights were very similar to anaconda movie, the trees, the rivers) and there was no lights. Absolutely no lights. We can only use my torch light or light stick to increase our visibility.

Even with those light stick or torch light, i would say visibility was only 10%. No exaggerrating.

Then at one point. My dad's boat suddenly stopped. He turned and suddenly smiled. (My god, why can't u choose a better timing for this?) Damn scary you know. Exactly like replica of a horror movie.

It was a few seconds later then he begin to speak. My mind already envisioned with those dialogues from those creepy movies.

Example: "Heh heh heh, you followed the wrong person. Now come to me....."

But to our relief, he said , " I stopped because i wanted to test your eyesight, to stop in time to avoid colliding with my boat".

It was only 30 mins later we reach that 'kelong', where there are lights. Suddenly felt there is 'life' again, breathe more easily.

This is one heck of a hell experience for us. And especially for my bro, to test his boat steering skill.

My bro is 26, he is scared too and so is his girlfriend. So can you imagine how creepy it is to be out there? Darkness surrounds you. There is uncertainty because you're there thinking, "What if my boat breaks down or run out of fuel?" or "What if we lost our way, who we gonna call for help?"

Being in boat is twice the fear factor induced then being in a car when travelling in darkness. Especially if you lose your way.

Imagine my dad. 60 years old. Travelling around like this almost everyday, by himself, alone to get his stocks for his restaurant.

Hahs, he got 10+ years experience but i still worried about him.

Ok enough of it, here's the pic:

Ok i admit for once, i'm zhi lian.

My hair sucks today, thanks windy brother.

Thanks again windy brother. Kuku hair style.

I'm a anchor man!

Fireworks. Unspoken agreement on corruption of malaysian police to allow fireworks (provided u give them $ lim kopi when kanna caught =p) when its illegal in Malaysia.

To Singaporeans: "Too bad, your govt is not flexible to let u play fireworks, only can play with light sticks, WAHAHA"

2006-11-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

Just went to view his blog.

Realised that i'll never be good enough for her.

2006-11-17T01:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPENINGS

Yesterday very tulan. Lost my sim card.

Was at Chinatown, then Lucas wanted to check his messages with my phone as his hp's battery is flat (not ur fault).

So i removed my sim card then i guess i put inside my hp pouch, hand very itchy, swing my hp pouch.

Reached Dhoby Mrt station then realised my sim card was missing. Detour back to Chinatown to search but to no avail. People might thought i'm a weirdo, pacing back and forth.

Haiz, then cannot msg her, no mood go sch. So decided to bontank.

Today woke up. Meet billy, went to PS to get replacement for my sim card. Luckily 1st time is FOC, second time then is $21.

After that, he accompany me browse wallets at taka. Bought a Guy Lorache wallet, costs $63.20 after 20% discount (U.P $73), discounts are so good!

My most expensive wallet to date.

Anyway my previous wallet was from Top Men, bought during shopping for my prom clothes, costs only $22. Lasted for 2 years plus. Old and ragged already, great timing for a change.

From this to....THIS!

Comparision

Nice ya?

No? ~~Go to hell!~~

Next stop, Bugis.

Billy went to fix his watch, think the battery something wrong, watch time is slowly than normal time.

Pass by a fashion show, DC label. You guys should have seen it before. Those superheroes logos inprint on shirts de. Superman, batman design etc.

The host was a suave australian (judged by his accent), once he said freebies if u do ** or do ***, people rushed.

omg. Singaporeans.

Hahs, i admit i do have the urge to rush forward to ge the freebies too, because u all have to do is to show his one of ur item. Any. Ipod, hp or t-shirt. Ur dog. Ur mother. Ur father. ANYTHING!

Haha, in the end of course i did not rush to get that free DC t-shirt, it would look so SINGAPOREAN and uncool.

A rapper came out and rap about those 'item' that were shown in the freebies thing to the beat of another guy, a beat boxer. Not a easy task for the rapper.

After that, a group of guys came out and did the hip-hop dances, they did pretty well. Most surprisingly is that the host himself actually did some break dances move and amusing robot mimic dance. That was breathtaking . You might even mistake he is a pro (is he?).

Truly is HIDDEN DRAGON CROUCHING TIGER!

I enjoyed the show.

Thats all for today.

*By the way, i bought a new hp pouch. Or rather sock. It was like the previously ipod sock but this time for my hp. No more swinging.

2006-11-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

FRUSTRATED

See my friend msn nick i also tulan.

Because it says "WOOT. i think today maths paper's a breeze.WEE - i hope it'll be like that for all paper"

Na bei. I have no excuse for myself.

I think total time studied for this paper 1 is: 1 hr

Thats all. For one whole year.

One fucking whole year.

I'm still wondering how did i failed last year's o levels (maths D7 = ITE). I tried.
But not to the fullest. Not fully committed. But i tried.

I never really tried my best in my sec life.

Today my maths paper is a guarantee failure. No doubt. Almost all anyhow do, most of my work last year i forget le.

I can blame no one. I thought ITE was very slack, thanks to Billy's testimonial. But only Nitec, higher Nitec ain't slack.

After my exams, went to meet Billy.

Took my last year's O levels cert. Met some teachers along the way which i don't wish to as i was too pai seh. 2 years of taking O's and still a failure, i'm ashamed to face my teachers, they were committed in teaching me but yet i failed them.

Mrs Raj, Mr Seah, and Mrs Poh are some who saw me and asked, " How are you?" and came the next (my most dreaded question) "Where are you studying now?"

*Thats the reason i asked Billy to accompanied me. I don't want to face the music alone.

"Err...Clementi ITE"

"Oh i see, work hard huh..u can get to poly.' (Hope so)

"Ya, thanks"

I knew some of them is genuinely concerned about well-wishing me, but i not sure if they looked down on me.

Most of the people stereotyped ITE is It's the end. But they were wrong. I'm not consoling myself. I ashamed to say that i'm one of the people who stereotyped people.

I'm one of those who used to say, "i rather die than go to ITE, no future de".
But ITE changed my opinion, i more optimistic now, although its quite a longer route.

Mr seah said, "Longer route but better than no route mah"

He's right.

I also saw the principal and my chinese teacher (forget her name, how could i? I love her because she is one of the few who cares for me), chatted awhile with my chinese teacher but she was in a rush, guess she was tired after the educational trip for the students.

When she ask me that question, i only said, "Clementi" and she did not probe further.
I just cannot confidently say it out, i failed her.

Then after all the drama, i went to the drink stall to chat with Auntie Alice, she was nice when i was there in my sec life. Always give me discounts and today treated me a drink. Billy and i chatted with her for a awfully long time, guess we have alot to catch up. Laughter was there too.

Left the sch and ate at the Hong Kong Cafe, once featured in the channel 8 news before. I wanted to try it long ago. But east coast is too far and nobody is willing to accompanied me. But it opened a new branch in Novena might as well take the chance to try it.

Took a glance at the menu.

WTF!

So fucking expensive.

Mostly were $7.50 and above!

The cheapest are $4.80. All this were hawker fares in HK.

But this is SG u say. I say FUCK U.

Ok la, joking.

I ordered a beef brisket noodles and a si mud tea (argh fuck it, its the same as teh tarik, so many pattern for what).

The food were mediocre maybe abit better than the food courts. The si mud tea were slighty more "nong" (aroma) than the indians teh tarik.

Beef brisket costs $7.80
Si mud tea costs $2.50 (WTF, teh tarik only $1.20)

Who knows, i might bring her here to this HK cafe.

After the meal, we went to play pool.

But i played like shit. Even straight ball also cannot go in, my hands were shaky, cannot hold still.

Kanna thrash in the 1st few games. The afterwards (a awful long while) i played better but still loses. Disappointed with my form.

*Got one scene, Billy took a picture of me playing pool, the wall was obstructing my pool cue, i unscrewed the cue into 2 parts and use the shorter one to aim, damn funny. Will upload it when i have time.

I want to be a successful person, both in character and career wise, even in love. Otherwise its not even worth living for.

I hope 1 day, i can go in my sec school proudly and say confidently to my ex-teachers that i got a degree cert (u might say im ambitous who cares). That will be my proudest moment.

I wanna say sorry to those who put their hopes in me and waited in vain. I will repay your faith in me.

Please trust me.

Sorry brother, sis, dad and mum.

*Phew~ I shall end it here, my frustrations. I know you all are bored by it.

Today i was stopped in Orchard by a young girl, she gave me her name card.

It was a models company called create talents pte ltd. The same one that Billy was approached last time.
I knew they were profit orientated company.

Relax, i'm not so naive, i know my limits.

But if she give me her name card that means i'm still decent looking as a human.
At least i get some recognition.

2006-11-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

Dammit. I damn blur.

Took the wrong bus.

Was near the school at about 10, waited for my usual bus, 963.

Then from afar i saw a bus with the bus number ending with 3.

Then i instantly assumed it was 963.

Sat in bus for quite awhile, then notice a poster for the overview of bus 173.

I thought, "why the hell, 963 would post 173 route information on its bus".

Something was obviously wrong. The bus was not crowded, usually it cramped with those inconsiderate aunties.

The view of the routes the bus, going was not familiar at all. Then i saw a road name ,"Kechil".

Argh! fuck.

so damn tired le still took the wrong bus. Alighted at Bukit Timah beauty world, and took 961 to woodlands.

2006-10-31T01:23:00.000+08:00

One more thing before i sleep.

Ironic.

The loudspeaker actually knows how to cry. HAHAHA. =p

Gosh. I am so bad.

Maybe not so. I say what i like.

*Wish me luck in getting the gold member status in AB forum.

2006-10-31T01:06:00.000+08:00

I came back home on a wheel chair.

Because everybody...

is so freaking lame....

This episode is called "Lame and lamer" instead of "Dumb and dumber".

My class is are full of physically disabled students, all on wheels.(no offence to those genuinely disabled students)

Today laugh alot until to the extend of cramp, face got signs of 6-pack liao.

Everyone seems to have alot to tease about me, call me dog la (thanks Lucas __) and dunno wad la.

I'm not angry la, close friends play with each other only. But if someone who act as if they very close to you and continously to push the limits, i don't what unkind words i gonna shoot them, once i start, i don't stop.

Firing on all cylinders.

But thankfully, i learnt anger management class qiu hao

Qiu hao, u sure do know who the person i meant =p

Wednesday, don't forget. Roti prata at thomson.

*Don't know when is the day i can ask her out, her parents seems very strict. Now like everybody knows about it already lei, dunno who spread de. Keep it low profile can. Don't ruin my chances.

*Alan is a weakling. Everyday also headache. Excuses. HAHA.

2006-10-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

The pic i said earlier on my last entry, King & Queen.

Earlier today i went out with Ka Wing, Billy & Zhang Jie. After hearing what they said about the messages she send me, i had doubts about her. I realise my trust in her was so easily shaken. But when i receive her messages when i got home, i felt her sincerity. She was geninue.

What lucas said was right, take things slowly.

I scare my over-earnest will scare her away, i don't want her to be another gone case.

By the way, Billy had a philipino GF, hahs...but good for him la, found someone u like can le la, dun be like me.

*Wah, this saturday so many people ask me go out, ka wing and co ask me go pub, Pris ask me go chalet and stella ask me dunno go where. Which one should i go?

Maybe i should check my schedule. U guys wait, i very busy de hor.

=( Maybe all also cannot attend, go malaysia?

Future outstanding web designer cum entrepreneurer. =p

2006-10-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

Unappreciated or unworthy?

Being a single definately sucks to the core.

Lonely for the past 19 years, you will never understand that feeling.

I don't know why, i have never been popular with the girls. Probably, i'm shy or unwilling to take the 1st steps?

I don't know.

The statistics:

Confessed my love : 2

Success rate : 0%

I'm in JB right now, in a cyber cafe.

Its only 2 days and i felt uneasy not messaging her, the dumb thing is that even though my handphone don't have auto-roaming (reception), i kept checking my handphone for any sms from her.

I haven called her or meet her in person before, its something i gonna in the future before she goes Japan and Korea for her vacation.

There's one weird coincidence.

I rmb i had bought a pair of drinking glasses, because of the crown design on the glasses, I actually only wanted the king side but the girl at the reception said i must buy a pair of them.

I wrote the caption on friendster pic for the glasses : Everyone has their other 'half' in the corners of the world. Just like the pair of glasses

Is this fate? Her name by the way is Queenie, there's a encraved name of "Queen" glass, waiting for her new owner.

Will it work out?

Maybe i think too much.

2006-10-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

Wah lau, damn tulan!

Got people said i'm fat.

Abit plump only what, where got fat.

Belinda told me what she overheard a few days ago.

When i was playing soccer, Edwin's cheer leader, Amy told Edwin, "Beat the fat guy!"

Of course i know, she was referring to Peh Kiat becos Peh Kiat was the keeper.

Then Edwin replied, "Which one? Got 2 lei."

Wah lau..CB...the other 2 is Lucas and Qiu hao, of course she was referring me and Peh Kiat.

Knn.

Tts why i decided to diet. No more junk food.

And this time is no "3 mins temperature" (Chinese will know its meaning)

Today i done 50 sit ups plus some dumb bell lifting and push ups. Additional basketball playing at school also.

I eat very little, so unlike me.

A sandwich and a porridge. Tts all, for the whole day.

Perserverence is the key!

* I today exchange alot smses with Queenie, damn happy, long time never so enthu msg someone le. The sms last from 9pm to 1 am lei. Steady anot. But she's abit tad too young.
15 this year.

2006-10-17T14:49:00.001+08:00

HOW?!!

To go or not to go?

Thurs is D-Day.

Science practical O levels.

Now slacking at access room, haiz so sian.

Schedule so tight, mon-fri 8 to 5, no time to play already where got time to study o levels.

*Search and wait until hopeless liao.

Even Ka Wing also laugh at me for giving up.
I think almost in the process become gay liao =p

2006-10-15T04:48:00.000+08:00

Just had a nice bath.

The time is 4.42am

Came back from Ka Wing + Li Rong birthday.

Had a great time =)

Billy also came along. This time with 'his' car.

*'His' car = rented car

So shiok, we played pool until 2 am no last train but never mind, got a free ride.

Suddenly felt like adults, my friend actually fetch me home! No need ton until morning to catch the 1st train, no more paying expensive midnight cab fares home.

Dream on i say. Its rented. For 2 days only.
$60 per day. 1 month = 31 days = 60 x 31 =$1860. You must be fucking rich to rent for a month.

His dad wont let use his car, as it belongs to the company.

Anyway, before we played pool we went to watch Stay Alive. The story concept was good, but the horror part was mediorce.

After that, dinner at Jack's place. I ordered Jack's place special steak set meal.
Not bad, the potato with the bacon bits was nice and so were the asparagus, the steak were decent though.

Finally pool fusion! Li Rong left early, Hua Jie too, tml they had to book in camp. In total we played 5 hours, reason because i can get the membership of pool fusion if i spend more than $50.

The total cost were astounding $72.40 ( 5 hrs of pool + 4 set of sandwiches + 1 can drink)

Expensive, but the pool table, cue and ball is second to none. Pool fusion is number 1!

Hahs, next time come got 10% discount =)

Along the day, i shared alot of jokes and 'drama-ing' abit to make it more lively.
*Drama-ing = a certain play-acting to look stupid, to make people laugh.

I had fun. Thanks.

I hope u guys had a great time too.

*Damn funny to ji siao Hua jie, i seems to fire on all cylinders, shoot him everywhere he goes.

*I suppose i and billy are back on terms now.

*I don't think Kelvin treat us as a friend anymore, he rather go to his friends birthday (either ite or working friends) than old friends (kw & lr) birthday. On other times he always hang out with his friends than with us.

Kel, i think u have changed. Ever since, you went to ite, u never tried to ask me out and i sms u to hang out, either u dun reply or said u were busy.

Are u really THAT BUSY?

Its not an excuse, its up to u to juggle ur time well.

I kinda of disappointed with u.

2006-09-15T07:21:00.000+08:00

Long Time Since I....

BLOG!

Haha. 5+ Days!

Anyway, today went to Malaysia to Jiat Toh. Means banquet.

My dad donated RM 1000 to the a primary school in J.B and therefore got invited to the banquet dinner.

Wha lau! RM 1000 Dollars eh, give me spend better.

The primary school name in english was called, Chee Tong. Damn stupid the name. Call Chee By primary school better. =p

The food was very AVERAGE. No shark fin, no abalone. Lousy.

I took some pics with my bro and snaps others when they are not aware.

My brother and i. Pose error. Look at his expression =p

This is more like it

Anthony and Husky

Sis and Super (her bf nickname)

Performance by Chee By Primary School students

After that we went to my dad's place. We started playing cards, then my uncle came over and showed us a magic trick. Whoa, i didn't know he knows such stuff, we all try to replicate the trick but failed horribly. His pose were very funny.

Below is the video of the normal version.

As the alcohol sunk in, he has lost his touch, very funny! Cannot even stand properly.

*The shrieking sound in the video came from my mum.

Some of the photos of the monkeys at my dad's place. They very naughty, always snatch things from others.

Help me!

2006-09-09T06:21:00.000+08:00

Jack's Place

Haha. Today got free treat. (Only distinction students gets the treat =p)

I got a A2 for my combined humanilites, so is Yong Zhi and Michelle. What's more i'm proud about my achievement because i studied Social Studies at the very day of the exam.

From my former great history teacher Mr Chua aka Adolf Hitler. (He had a similar moustache)

He didn't know he has a identical twin brother

Go to Jack's place in Parkway Parade. Meeting Michelle and Yong Zhi at there also.

Mr chua seems old, after almost a year not seeing him. He's a very committed teacher i must admit, he's one of the reasons i like the subject history.

Anyway Yong Zhi was late so Michelle, me and Mr Chua started ordering first.

Mr Chua recommend us the specialty in the restaurant, he seems like a regular in Jack's place. Advising us not to order this, that. But having a person calling the shots is pretty good, you don't have to frustrate over the decisions.

Whats more, its only food.

If when it comes to food you have to think for such a long time, what about important decisions in life you have to make?

Life isn't that long.

*Back to topic

I ordered fire steak while Michelle ordered Jack's Place special steak and Mr Chua, black pepper steak.

Mine came first, the waiter accompied with a brandy, lighted it up. The flame was high. Never seen this before.

Country Bumpkin.

I was stupid, i tried a piece of my steak, then after that i concentrate on my potates and beans before settling for a second piece of my steak. By the time, there was no taste of brandy.

Fuck. Damn dumb.

Yong Zhi came afterwards, he ordered Salmon as he's buddhist follower, cannot eat beef (haha, poor thing).

We talk about alot of things, former student of balestier hill, Steve Irwin, news etc. But i didn't talk alot, because my english were poor.

I had a great time, complete contrast from yesterday's outing.

*I realised Michelle was actually so easy to talk to, maybe i never really tried to talk to her in the past. She was thinner from the last time i saw her.

2006-09-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

Stella Birthday.

I went.

To Chin Huat live seafood steamboat.

6 of their friends i don't know them.

I only know 2 person. Stella and hui yi.

In total the group is 8 girls and 1 guy. 6 of them is pretty.

Mistaken identity?

Cool you would think. Nope.

How awkward is that? You tell me.

The worse part is i tried to be friendly when i first reached there, i wave to them and say 'hi'.

No response. Diaoz.

Reasons for no response

They are vegetables (joking =p)
They are stucked up and proud (typical chio bu symptoms)
My first impression sucks
My 'hi' wasn't loud enough and they are blind, didn't noticed my waving hand
They are too shy

*Possible reasons is #2, 3 or/and 5.

In the end, i didn't talk a single word to any of Stella's friends except Hui yi which i know way before this outing.
If i know, this outing will turn out like this, i wouldn't have turn up. Anyway, just for you only Stella, give you face.

*I wanted at times tried to talk to them but their expressions on their faces show their unwillingness to talk. The girl wearing black colour top, interested to know her, but...haiz...forget it.

*I think probably my first impression sucks bah, as Pris said. But i already tried what, should give me credit ok.

2006-09-06T05:40:00.000+08:00

~Phew Spend 3-4 hours figuring the radio blog program. Finally can input into my web le!

Haha. Yea.

Another new feature on my blog is the image viewer which i uses plugin from the net, sorry to those people (wp,jf) whom i never feature on it (thats because i don't look good in those photos).

Today is considered a nice day. A good one. A lucky one.

Surprise surprise.

I topped the class for my web project. I was expecting Justin instead.

The feeling was good of course. After all, i'm finally top, playing second fiddle all this while.

*Yesterday we lost a great man, Steve Irwin nicknamed croc hunter, a great wildlife explorer and a caring father to his daughter, Bindi. Pity it is.

2006-09-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

Alot of things to do today:

Practice my MS access (Monday CA test)
Wash and hang my clothes
Walk my dog (if time allows)
Blog later in details
Do my maths (if time allows no.2)
Read up on Business Fundamentals (CA Exam coming, 11th Sept)
Download music

*I doubt i have so much time on all this things. Others later then update.

2006-09-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

Sakura!

Had a great time today. Met up with Lucas and Pris.

Damn hungry. Decided to eat all you can dinner.

Means buffet lah. We went to Sakura. Costs $26 (quite ex) but heck care la since i'm too hungry to think of other alternatives.

Once we were seated, Lucas and i chiong for the food. It was fun and we chit-chat while we eat.

The desert were nice, so were the sashimi (very fresh). The serving of the teppanyaki Beef (price justified) were generous too.

One funny incident though, it happened like this:

Step 1: Lucas and i went to get some shark fin soup.

Step 2: I came back to our table with the shark fin soup and ask Pris 1 stupid question, "Hey what if i fall down while taking our food on the way to our table?" She answered, "It would be damn funny!"

Step 3: For no reason my spoon fell. Dammit. Bulleye. Making a loud, piercing sound, attracting attention from other customers.

Step 4: Lucas walks to his seat and he clumsily spills the soup all over the floor.

Step 5: He too, for no reason no. 2, his spoon fell. Clumsily too.(refer to step 3 for the effect)

Step 6: I and Pris laughed until stomach cramp(can train 4 pack), i was about to have my soup. But i let go of my spoon because my laughter was too uncontrollable. The bowl was made of sterofoam(dunno how to spell), the spoon overweighted the bowl, hence spills all over the table.

Final Step: We laughed controllably.

We looked like 2 year old kids who can't even have our meals properly. Disgraceful. But fun =)

Hah, damn satisfied after eating the buffet, haven't had one in a long time.

*As we walked to the mrt station, Pris told me about Billy asking about me. I was surprised. Some part of me still treat him as friends, some part of me dislike him stubborness. I still shared the memories of us doing foolish things, talking crap and laugh together.

*Wan Ping going to buy lap top, Wei Sheng already bought one. So envy of them. But now is not the use of it is still not urgent, so have to forgo it. If i can buy one, i would buy the apple ibook. The design is sooo nice!

*Treasure your friends =)

2006-08-28T03:53:00.000+08:00

Reflections

Its 3.49am now. I have no mood to do my wpb.

Damn boring.

I'm tired of this life. Tired of no purpose. Tired of looking for something. That something could be anything.

I'm just tired. I saw no meaning in living for no purpose, no direction.

Can someone fucking help me recarinate, so i can fucking live a new life?

Sometimes i wanna cry, why am i so useless?

NB...CB...KNN...CCB....LJ.....FUCK...

Sorry, i just have to vent my frustration, mood swing bah. I cannot continue this way.

Can i turn back the time?

No.

I can be never contend with myself, i'm just a useless piece of shit.

I envy my old schoolmates with the progress they made.

I'm just backtracking.

*Don't wait for me. No point holding to a piece of trash.

2006-08-27T01:42:00.000+08:00

Summary of AB Chevron Outing

Just came back from the chalet at Chevron this morning.

Damn tired.

The tournament starts from 9 pm.

and ends at 6 in the morning! can you believe it? 9 freaking long hours!

12 players only.

I lost the winning 11 tournament konami cup, i was eliminated at knock-out phrase after qualifying from group stages. One of the reasons is probably because i was tired towards 5 am like this, then never concentrate.

The plus point is that i eliminated Hafiz, the big tournament favourite. Everybody was in awe of him. I was going out in the tournament, but i turned the tables. Unfortunately after that, i didn't proceed far.

Didn't felt very sad, because i never succeed in anything de la. Certainly not as sad as my team knock out of the soccer tournament for the second year in the running.

Soccer tournament or console games tournament also lose.

Had a great time although i lost all my wallet's $ in betting and blackjack. Total loss about 50, because the registration fee for the console game cause $25, if i didn't win it means also lose loh. Get to meet all the AB guys , some of them very funny, i blend well with them, i was the youngest though, their average age was around 23-25.

Weird right? A 19 year old mix with the 23+ old ones.

But those profilic tipsters from AB, never come lei, but not very disappointed la, can meet others face to face.

We talk about those soccer betting related things loh, very interesting. That day was also Sister Maymei's birthday, a regular in AB, she was very nice. I had some bbq food and cake.

Zola, Yang2 was very friendly. So was MVF and co. If you thought their names was very funny, you are wrong. Because we called each other by the nicknames in the AB forum.

They siao de, even console games they also got bookmarkers de. The bookies get a chair outside the sliding door (RE: to prevent the others from leaking the info and fix the console game match) and start offering odds and taking bets. Those who want to bet, has to go behind the sliding door to bet because scare the players *kelong.

I got bet abit la, lose about $30. Then after that we played blackjack.

I was lucky, starting to win back my $ after losing in the bets.

Then after i was knocked out in the console games. My luck changed, dipped.

Finally, i lost all of my wallet's $. Left 50 cents only. Poor thing. Then after that i go take a nap, they woke me up later and Zola's friend drove me home because he lived near woodlands too

MISC

Saw that girl on lucas testimonial tab. Seen her on person on friday, very pretty. Although lucas asked me if i want to know her, but i said no, too pai seh le.

2006-08-23T02:38:00.000+08:00

Reflections

Today, i felt inferior.

Because coincidentally i saw Bryan, Lucas and Hafiz.

3 Very handsome guys.

Dull comparison loh, if i stand beside them.

Since i came to Clementi ITE, my ego is very big, i want to 'top' everything. But in life, you cannot win everything. You cannot top everyone. Today was a neat example. Even if i top in studies, sports and etc, i can never be as handsome as them.

Many people said i'm cute.

Cute = Adorable but UGLY

They go 1 1/2 round shoot me.

If i could mould my own body and face features i would :

Remove all the pimples and large pores
Make my head smaller
Make my lips thinner
Replace all the fats with muscles (no packs on face pls)
Taller

2.4 KM NAFA TEST

I remembered vividly, my best timing in 2.4 km run is when i was at sec 3/4, if i'm not wrong is 10:21 secs.

That was 3/4 years ago.

Today i ran 10:31 secs (although i put 10:00 at the record hah.), not bad huh, consider how much weight i gain these few years and laziness to train.

Not bad.

I thought i was 1st in the class. I felt very good.

Nb, diaoz. Darius was first, i never notice he was infront of me until he told me his timing, 10:03 secs. Very fast loh.

Darius 45 KG = 10.03 secs

Lawrence 73 KG = 10.31 secs

Imagine, Lawrence 45 KG = ??:?? secs

2006-08-21T02:16:00.000+08:00

Priscilla won 3rd place in teenage icon! so proud for her as a friend. Today abit tired to cheer and didn't cheer much cause my hands also cramped le, holding the camcorder up.

Although i wish for her to win the competition, but a 3rd place finish is pretty good too.

The winner is ming bridges.

A pretty ang moh, 13 years old only (my god!), nice figure too.

Ming Bridges

Not my type.

Anyway i think the reasons Pris did not win is because (dun blame me pris)

She don't have the X-factor
She went off key
She aren't richer than ming bridges (because votes contains a percentage of score, those who buy follow me products are eligible to vote only)
The attire was wrong (who chose the clothes for her?) The semis u wore is better.

Sorry pris. i'm just being honest. =)

Anyway Josh and Lucas drool over the ang moh girl loh, look here, look there.

What's the big deal? Josh like very despo loh, Lucas maybe eager to find another one?

Josh is so dirty-minded to my shock. I skipped on what he said la.

i mean her figure is good, face is chio but so? look long alr, also sian la.

Maybe at the semis i see before so i not excited, let alone fascinated. Maybe she's only 13, so young, not tempting enough and ang moh won't like we poor asians.

Dunno. Maybe bah.

Updated: Flattered that Phersal and Priscilla Ho( Teenage icon contestant) praised me, damn pai seh loh.

Super updated: *Thanks Priscilla Lim too for whatever the reason =)

2006-08-20T05:46:00.000+08:00

Its 5.44am now and i have not sleep. Fuck, i now always so late then sleep, sooner later i become a owl, or have dark circle round my eyes then not handsome le. Hah.

By the way, yesterday i went to k-box with lucas, alan and lucas's friend, wei jie.

Lucas sing very well, his friend not bad either and alan improve drastically after hearing him sing that time.

*Wei Jie is also quite suave, together with lucas, their 'aura' is frightening.

i'm lousiest, no talent, no looks, all pimples. At earth waste resources only.

Unfilial son. No responsibility.

I sucks to the core.

And also after the k-box yesterday, i went home when i pass my causeway's point and saw a pasar malam. Of course i went to buy a peanut pancake. But i only have two 50 note, a dollar of coin. The pancake cost 80 cents, i wanted to buy 2.

I was ready to pay it, then the storekeeper ask me do i have any change and i said no.
She was like as if she saw an alien.
I mean, is it a big deal if i don't have small change?

Then a lady walk beside me, i have small change then she ask me how much i need, i was like very weird why she for no purpose help me? I was a complete stranger. I thought she was related to the storekeeper but she was not.

She give me a dollar, i thanked her of course, and when she wanted to buy pancakes the storekeeper said they sold out. I offered to give her mine, 1 for me 1 for her.

She said its ok.

I returned the change of 40 cents from the dollar she lended me, she just smiled.

From this, i realised kind people still exist in Singapore. A simple act like this really made my day. Thanks. I appreciate it.

2006-08-18T05:13:00.000+08:00

True friends are rare

How true is that...

Today i quarrel with Billy.

I today receive a letter from my mother's friend, the one who open a starhub line 2+ years ago, then a couple of months ago, my expense of my bill was $400 plus because that time i regularly called to England.

I had no $ to pay up.

I had to zao loh.

Cancelled the line. Thought nothing would happen since they couldn't find that guy.

Then today, he came to my house, i was at school, he put the letter underneath my door.

It was a letter send a firm, via Starhub's instructions.

In it, its states the person to pay the bill immediately or face a possible legal action.

Then, i scared loh, i sms Billy ask him faster return me the $180 he owed me asap.

My sms was : "Hey you really got to save up or take ur ang pow $ return me asap liao. Im in big trouble liao, tat time my last starhub line they send the warning letter via a company to the owner of the line. Today he come my hse n put the letter under my door. I owed $457. You really got to help me le."

Then guessed what his reply was?

"tk frm ur mum la. y u nv pay?"

Then after seeing this, i damn fucking tulan loh, i mean what the fuck, you owed me the $ from Feb until now when you promised to return a week later. Then you THINK i fucking rich ar, everytime take from my mother, then you no need return my $ lah?!

CBK.

His maths so lousy meh? 1 week = 6 months.

Until now, i also never kp him to return, i just ask him faster return me only.

Furthermore the $ that time he lend from me was not for urgent use loh, its for buying the Sharp Vodafone handphone he wanted. T

That time he lied to his mum that he was selling his mitsubishi handphone to buy the Sharp handphone and asked her to give him $ to buy 1st and after his mitsubishi phone sold then he return her $.

The ironic thing is, he lend $ from me to return his mother $. How weird is that?

At that time, i had cash to spare because it was during the chinese new year mah, den i think he would by then return me with his ang pow $ next week.

How naive i was.

Haiz, he then dragged the payment and dragged. Everytime claiming he has $ return but a few days later he spend it, saying that i got to take it early from him as he finds it difficult to save up. ( I was in Malaysia helping my mum in the cafe at that point of time, so no time to take from him)

Then, i think a month or two ago, he was wooing a girl called Pearlyn, she wanted a Adidas Track Top which cost around $120+. I don't mind him buying for her because she was the lady he like, so obviously he had to buy something to show his appreciation.

But suddenly, things turned sour for them, he did not buy the track top, but since he didn't buy, i ask whether he has $ to return, the response was negative. Only $20 reached my wallet.

Back to topic:

I sms him back : "Wah lao..u tell me this type of thing now when i in nid of $? I tat time cancel the line n tot starhub cannot find where the person lived. The sum so big how to pay? Last time when i lend u the $ in feb u told me you would return me by next week. Den dragged until now i dun mind if i dun need the $ urgently, now i nid $ you tell me this type of thing? Wtf..i shouldn't lend you in the first place. Im very disapponted in u."

His reply was: "eh what the fuck u talking about? u say til like that. Knn. U call this friend. Nvm. U wan lke that, i try borrow $ frm friend 2 return u."

Mine: "But the tone of ur earlier reply suggust tat you dun care a damn abt me."

His: "as if u did give a damn about me."

Mine: "Ya la..so im in the fault right now? I just worried if the person tio legal action from starhub..den wad i gonna do? I cannot afford to pay the legal costs."

His final sms: " i return the 180 asap"

NB...Cb...now its my fault loh. I always give in to u loh, u so fucking stubborn.

After a long while, i logged into msn, my nick was " i have been very patient with you, i fucking disappointed with you", personal msg: "Friendship > $"

He then msn me:

"WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says: who is this msg for?

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:u.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
u not happy just say la..

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
the sms u sent me "tk from ur mother la." i really tulan.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
CB

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
i dun like the tone.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
where's the prob?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
fuck you!

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
what tone?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
where's the tone?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
since u take it that way

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
it's ur prob..

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
the way i see it is tt way.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
so let it be..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
i dun give a fuck to someone who doesn't treat a friend like a friend..

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
i'm just asking u to return a portion of my $ so i can pay bit by bit to starhub. But u just tell to get it from my mum?

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
i dun treat u like friend? wad the fuck is tt?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
what's wrong with that?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
u like that also not happy..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
might as well dun ask..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
if i have $ u think i wont return:?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
cb i no $ thats y ask u to take from ur mum..

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
maybe is ur tone of ur msg i dun understand. Thats why i tulan den send u tt msg.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
where the tone come from?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
ur phone so high tech got tone all come out ar?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
u think that way..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
it'll be that way..

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
From the msg, u can tk it as i misinterpreted it.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
for nothing u think i give attitude for what fuck?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
so thats ur prob rite..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
non of my fucking business..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
i take it that ur first msg to me also damn fucking attitude..

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
which msg? the msg tt i said, " i was in trouble"?

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
whatever la..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
just know that u spoil my fucking day..

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
i try my best get the Fucking $180 and return u.

I have been very patient, i am fucking disappointed with you ~Lawrence~ ©7 days without laughter make one weak® says:
hope so.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
pls change ur fucking nick.

WhEn mY AtTiTuDe ToWaRdS U HaS ChAnGeD, iT wIlL nOt ChAnGe BacK aGaIn.. says:
thanks."

I had mixed reaction, the sad part is i lost a friend, the good part is i lost a stubborn, attitude friend.

2006-08-18T04:49:00.000+08:00

Blood Donation

Wednesday 16/08 i went for the donation drive held in our school.

Reasons why i wanna donate blood:

I want to generate new blood

I want to help people in need

~~I bo liao~~

I want to try it, to experience it

~~I did it for the snacks + drink~~

Anway, it was a great experience and interesting.

Before that i was meeting Alan,Yingyu and Siti for the blood donation but in the end, i went in alone except with the freakies(u know who) in our class. Alan is sick and took medication the day before, Yingyu doesn't have enough Iron, and Siti forgot to bring her IC and doesn't have her EZ link card.

Before you are cleared to donate blood, you are required to fill up the form. Some questions regarding ur personal information (Sex life etc.) Some were funny though. E.g *For Female Donors: Did you have sex before with a male knowing that he had sex with another male before?

Damn stupid loh, where would women have sex with a guy knowing he's a gay?

But they are exceptions though.

After that, the people there would test if ur blood contain enough iron, but extracting ur blood from ur thumb, dropping into a blue solution, if ur blood sink to the bottom means you have enough. (Yingyu failed because of this)

Then came the real thing, before that, they gave me a jab to the numb the pain. The needle was quite thick for the blood transferring thing, nb..i damn scared loh..luckily got the numb jab or i faint liao.

After plugging the needle + tube to my arm, the blood flows pretty fast, within 5 mins, it was half-filled, but i was very tired, got to squeeze the soft toy on my left hand (doing pumping action) to ensure smooth blood of blood.

Very tired de lei.

Then, finish le, they wrap up the bandage on my arm.

*Does not have bluetooth at home will upload the pictures of my blood donation pictures next time.

2006-08-12T03:44:00.000+08:00

Today i watched The Fast And The Furious Tokyo Drift with Priscilla,Ka Wing, Ying Yu, Wen Ting, Wei Sheng and Belinda at the cathay cineplex.

The movie was pretty cool.

The Fast & Furious Tokyo Drift

Of course, the perfect formulae for a guaranteed box office hit, fast cars + hot chicks = great movie.

The movie was pretty decent, the cars although the design lost abit of its attractiveness compared to 2 Fast 2 Furious, but the drifting pretty eye-catching. So were the girls =) Especially Nathalie Kelley.

With a female lead this hot, its not surprising why we can't take our eyes off the screen.

One of the scene shows a car drift towards the curved slope to the top of the car park.

One word.

Cool.

After the movie, we were engaged in post-movie chat, i was saying about the japanese guy, Satoshi Tsumabuki, the guy who starred in the film for just...15 seconds, his diagloue were only," GO!". Two words.

He was the male lead, in the popular movie, Waters Boys (2001).

This guy's popularity in Japan are second to none.

I wish i had his looks.

But why the director only cast him for 15 seconds and spoke only 2 fucking words?

Macham like extras like that.

He was loaded with filming projects in Japan, the schedule hence, was not ideal for him to act in a major role in that film.

However, the director was very determined to put him in the film, and that explains it.

The way, he shouted "Go!" was damn cool loh, even though 2 words only, maybe his "aura" affected me bah.

Ying yu, Pris and co. thought i was talking crap (eat too much crab le), but it was true, i read that article in The Newpaper.Ying yu and Priscilla had other thoughts. They said Han was more handsome and cool. Who's Han? Han's restaurant boss?

His name was Han in the film, real name was Sung Kang. Korean. His looks was very normal only loh, average joe. But maybe his character in the movie played to his advantage, his dialgoue and role was the 'suave' type.

Act cool only, i also know how. =p

After watching this movie, i realise that if you want to learn the technic of streets racing you cannot stay in Singapore. Speed past 100 km/hr already police cars chase you, how to race? Drifting. Singapore people all only know half bucket of water want de lah..act know only.

Anyway after the movie, we go the open area food court near centrepoint have my dinner, then we all parted, i go meet Zhang Jie lend Dreamweaver book from him.

~Phew that was a long entry. I very lo soh.

2006-08-08T03:20:00.000+08:00

I could not find my desired templates for my blog, as a result, my first post dragged from sunday to tuesday.

Went to Johor Bahru on saturday 05/08/2006, alot hilarious things happened. That day was my brother's friend, Sonia's Grandmother's Birthday, they held a BBQ at their kampong house at Pontian (if i'm not wrong). It was Sonia's Grandmother's birthday but what's that gonna do with me?

Hehe.

Food. =)

No lah! I'm just bored. I go wherever my brother goes, if not, i be staying at the Penthouse-my step mum's cafe-watch tv programmes and eat the whole day, how boring is that?

Anyway, its been awhile since i went to a kampong village. (Mentioning this, i suddenly remembered a player named Pimpong, who plays for Ghana in the World Cup. His face was fucking funny, and yea it looks like a ping pong.)

But hey, it wasn't the kampong i was expecting.

I was expecting wooden planks supporting the stucture of the home they have been living, but it was concrete. I don't know i was dumb or what, or my mind was lagged behind in time.

By the time we arrived, most of the food were already finished. The scraps was left. By 'scraps', i meant the food was pretty decent. There will be ALOT of food if we're not late.

Sonia and co set up a bench sit and open a table for us. Husky-my bro's good friend- was the first to settle down and was ready to have his meal, i was about to sit down and eat, my hand touch the bench (usually before u sit down, you would 'feel' the chair) and the bench COLLAPSE! It was fucking fucking funny, i couldn't control my laughter! Imagine even before your lips even touch the food, you were on the ground, every eyes was on you, most of them laughing uncontrollably.

If my laughter were to continue like this for the current month, i can get a 6 pack already loh. With facial muscles a full body work out, its possible. Lame. You would say. Get me a wheel chair then.

Afterward, Husky kept emphazing and kp that i was heavy thats why the bench collapsed but i didn't even sit down. Did he meant that my hand was 70Kg? I don't think so. The 'legs' of the bench was not even spread properly, thats why dumbo!

As we settled down, having our meals, the aunt of Sonia was at the opposite table, kp and kp, slam the table, making alot of noise. She was drunk. Another aunt of Sonia (i'm not sure if its her aunt) couldn't bear it and slap her face and told her to shut up and scram.
Of course after that decisive slap, hell broke loose. They were having a go at each other, others tried to hold them back.

Then, one uncle lost his temper when persuading and screaming wasn't an option. He shouted at the drunkard, "GO HOME! ANYTHING, SETTLED TOMORROW!" She refused, was on her knees when others attempt to forcibly drag her to the car. Then he use the box containing ice + water, splash it at her.

Nb. I was wet. Luckily a little tio me only or else if my handphone was damaged he would get a taste of Law's wrath!

Finally, of course she was dragged to her car and somebody drove her home.

Overall i don't think its the drunkard fault, because when you're drunked, you can do anything unexpected. Some will quietly doze off, others will behave like a noisy bitch.

What a drama.

Violence isn't the solution.

Drinking cost problems. =)